Back To Normal

I am done with letting people tell me what I can and cannot eat.  I am tired of reading all these people blogging on this is unhealthy, this is the right way to do it, this is how people should eat, blah blah blah.  I am still interested in diet and fitness, but I am getting bogged down with my current method of research, which is mostly reading blogs.  I have to remind myself that this is just one person's opinion; it may or may not be factual.  It may be backed by some study, but does that mean it is true?  For me or anyone else?  I do not have the answer.  But I know it is not really getting me anywhere.  I mean, I am, by nearly all definitions, fit and in shape.  I have good lean muscle mass, and my body fat levels are low but not unhealthy.  I look good naked, and generally feel good phyiscally at rest and in activity.  So what am I after?  Why do I feel the need to try to deprive myself of certain foods because other people are telling me so?  Or more acurately, why am I trying to live on the fringe?  

This I believe:  Grains are for the most part unhealthy.  There is too much evidence which supports this, which I believe.  I am okay with avoiding them on a regular basis, and eating them in moderation, as in pizza, pasta, bread, or pastries.  But these are occassional, and are not a part of my daily diet.  The same can be said with sugar.  But I am getting tired of trying to adhere to a set of dietary rules.  This is only adding stress to my life, and it is completely self-induced.  Screw this.  I am done.

I am gonna stop all the madness.  I will eat low-carb-ish, but not really follow a diet or a WOE.  I will eat whatever I want some of the time.  This could mean twice a week, or three times a week.  Basically, I'm going to try not to count or worry about it, or record it, or anything.  When I want to eat "bad" food, I will.  I need to get back to food being food, and not "good" or "bad" or "clean" or "unhealthy".  I have a general idea what is healthy or not.  I can eat healthy most of the time.

I miss my bananas and other fruit.  Grains I can keep to moderation.  I'm not really missing cereal too much, so I can hang with my bacon and eggs.  Maybe throw some sausage in there.  I am going to continue not to measure, and eat off hunger.  I will keep on my weekly weigh-ins, because this will keep me from letting my weight or BF get too high.  Or, at least, be aware of it.  I want my strength training to be my top fitness priority, so I don't want to be in a calorie deficit while I'm trying to increase my strength.  That makes sense.  I may or may not try a 24 hour fast.  I keep saying I want to, then chicken out.  Maybe one week I will do it. 

I am also going to ditch the whole minimalist running.  I miss running normally. Trying to make the transition to running in my VFF is hard and not fun.  So I'm gonna use my VFF only at the gym, and run like a normal person. 

I like that sound of that.  Like a normal person.  While I'm working so hard on my spritual program, I need to stop trying to change other aspects of my life so much.  I need to put my energy toward spirtual growth, and let the other changes come more naturally.  I will still exercise, and try to eat healthy, but will do it more sanely and normally.  I need to stop trying to live extreme and instead do what makes me happy.  I know what makes me happy, so I should do that.  Also, I need to be happy with what I have, and stop trying to make my life into something else.  Like trying to be paleo/primal or carnivore or low-carb or whatever. 

Moderation in diet, do what I like in exercise, and work hard on the spirit.  This is now my plan.