So I am happy to be off of RTP and eating how I want. I am, though, ready to get back on the clean eating wagon. So I plan on today, Friday, to get on with counting calories and trying not to eat total junk. I plan my meals on Fitday, and space them out to 5. First two meals, all good. Then I get to work, and it turns out to be one of our bosses' birthday, with a huge spread and cake! I decided to eat some of what was offered. It make me happy; to be able to join in with my co-workers in a meal and not hide at my desk eating my super clean foods. So I had a little of a few things, not going crazy or anything. One chicken finger, a little jambalaya, one wing, and 2 oatmeal raisin cookies. Everything was good, but the cookies were awesome! After that, I decided to have a slice of cake. It looked homemade, and after enjoying so much the cake I had yesterday, I went for it. As awesome as the cookies! Unfortunately, my meal first made me lightheaded, and then drowsy as can be! I know it wasn't my usual overdose of coffee, because I only had one travel mug instead of my normal two. It must have been the sugar. I did have my ham and cheese sandwich about an hour before the meal, so my fullness contributed to it a bit, I'm sure. But I really was wiped out! So I skipped lunch, and went home to try for a power nap. I didn't really sleep, but got some good rest in. My watch alarm woke me up, I grabbed a Coke Zero, and headed back to work feeling refreshed.
The moral of this story is: Sugar is okay, but I must keep it in moderation. One cookie, and the cake, is plenty. And I really need to curtail the sugar intake. A once-in-a-while is fine, but my near-daily such as this past week is playing havoc on my system. No worries though; a couple weeks of normal 90% clean eating will get me back on track. And I do get to eat at either maintenance or surplus! Much much better than deficit. My body will adjust to this new diet, but there will be a transition period, since I have been on deficit for so long. But it will adjust. I just have to stick with my weekly measurements to make sure I'm not putting on too much BF, like I did in the spring of '08. I will. I am confident this will work out.
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What do I want? This question constantly plagues me. I feel I must answer this question before I can truly set goals. Or maybe, my desires change with time. What I wanted at one time may not be what I want in the future. Bah! This is not productive. Just because I want something, do I really have to know the motive for wanting it? My instinct says yes. Case in point: I want to look like a fitness model. Why? So I can be attractive. To whom? Females of course. Men only to create envy. Because if I look good on the outside, I will have more "confidence" like Adam says. Maybe, but I am actively working on a spiritual program which works on my insides, and will translate into, or render less important, my outsides. After all, beauty is skin deep. Why do I want to be big? Just so I can be big? Really? What is the point in that?
Wouldn't a better goal be to feel the best I can? Hell, I've been pursuing that goal for as long as I can remember. I have just used chemical means for most of my adult life. But now that that is over, I am working on my program to help me with the spiritual, mental, psychological, emotional, aspects of my health and well-being. But is the physical that detached? A simple visual inventory says that spiritual health does not directly relate to physical health. I believe it is intertwined, but straightening up spiritually will not make you fit. I know what make one physically fit. However, "fit" can mean many things. Let's start by eliminating what I don't want.
I don't want to compete as a bodybuilder. Easy. This means is should not train and eat with a bodybuilder plan/goal in mind. Specifically, I should not try to build mass just for the sake of getting big. I should not train just to look good, which is another vital part of bodybuilding. Health should be a higher priority than appearance. I like looking good at the gym, but really that is vanity. I would rather feel good than look all studly. Being healthy should make me feel good, right?
Do I want to powerlift? Do I want to be strong? Strength has its advantages. But other than being able to lift heavy weights, not a whole lot of practical applications in my world. So no to powerlifting. But, if I continue to life with a general strength training program, which I like doing, then I will get stronger.
Crossfit? Well, although it is appealing, not practical. I like Gold's, I like traditional weightlifting. Crossfit is more "functional" fitness, and it just doesn't fit into my world well.
So what do I like to do? I like to run. I like to ride my bike. I like to lift weights. I like to go out to eat and have free meals. The question is, how do I merge what I like to do into what would make me feel the best?
So doing things I like make me feel good. That is easy. But where is the goal? The goal is to do what makes me feel the best. So I need to find the diet/exercise plan that makes me feel the best. Can I really use how I feel as a measurement of "right" or "wrong" action? Hmm. I know basics, and can start there. Then I can tweek based on how it makes me feel. Does it make me feel good or bad?
More to follow!
More to follow!
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